Out of Sorts

 

Since I graduated I have felt out of sorts a bit. I can't seem to shake free of this funk. I am still running but with less urge or desire to run. I love it when I am out there and feel that I could run better and longer if I could get out more often. I have just been feeling defeated.

My eating hasn't been super good either. I find that I am feeling a bit overwhelmed by life even though nothing huge is going on. I am not sure what the route of this depression is.  I only know that I hate it and in turn feel that I am not a fan of myself.

I decided to analyze my funk since that is what I do in the work world. I looked at what I was doing and compared it to my norm. Then I realized this isn't my norm anymore. My norm is more active and less weight. My eating is better and so I realized that I have let myself slip from the norm for me. This slip has happened over time and that is how I am going to have to turn it back. It is up to me to do it no one else can do it for me.

I have goals that I still want to accomplish this year and my slacking in eating and exercise are getting in the way of what I want to do. This new trend is not one I like and I am the only one who can change it.

___________________________________Update_________________________________

So when I started writing this I felt really out of sorts. I knew I needed to do something but was so out of sorts that I was almost in a depression. I have been working on it and found that I am getting a little better at my eating and I love my running I just need to make more time to get more running days in. I will be the only one to know when I am feeling like I am back to normal but as long as I was just sitting there feeling out of sorts and doing nothing I couldn't feel any better. I can't be on the side lines of my own life I have to get in the game and go for it.