That moment when

I often get asked what was that one thing that got me to start doing better with my health.  I think they are looking for that one thing to help them start. I wish I could send them to a website or a book or a pill or something but that is just it; there is no one thing for everyone. Everyone has such personal reasons for their issues that there is no one thing that can motivate you to do what you are afraid of doing.  I am not even sure there is a one thing for me. I just knew it was time for me to stop sitting on the side lines of my life. I knew I wasn't happy with myself and I was sick all the time.

I often hear people say that "It is what it is." I am not sure what they mean but to me it means they feel like they have no options and they are OK with just what is going on in that situation. I hate this saying because I feel that if "it is what it is" than you still have some options. You can change your place in the situation or you can change your attitude about that situation. For me I wasn't OK with "it is what it is with my health or my diabetes. I decided that yes, I do have diabetes and that is how it is. But I don't have to let it run my life. I can do as much as I can to run it and not let my attitude get in my way.

I still have a way to go but as you can see I have accomplished much. I try to look back every so often at where I was and where I have come as a good boost to show me I can do it. At times I get discouraged or feel inadequate with myself. These are the times I remember one thing my youngest daughter (Chloe') told me. She once told me "If you tell yourself you can't mom, You never will.  I thought about it and now realize how right she is. Our negative self talk holds us up from trying things we can do.